What Big Events? (AKA Update #1)

I guess this could be an update post from this one. Right about the time Big Event #1 started, I still hadn't heard f/my boss, so I called her, several times. One of those times someone picked up her phone and hung up on me (I assume her, but I'm giving the benefit of a doubt). I left her several voice mails that were never returned. Vx called his mom (who I work with), she said the boss wasn't calling me because I told her I didn't want to work in the arena, so she wasn't going to call me to work other posts. I SWEAR I NEVER SAID THAT TO HER! Either my memory's a lot worse than I thought it was, or she's making this up so there's more jobs available for her relatives. Before summer, my boss's sisters never worked third shift, this summer they did. A family friend of my boss (old pervert) used to get quite a few hours, his were cut back so much that he handed in his badge, uniform tops, etc. A guy that used to work on occasion started renting a house f/the boss, so she started giving him tons of hour (I assume so he can continue to pay rent) instead of others. She even cut back on MIL's hours after she took off one weekend for her high school reunion.

Big Event #2 started a few days ago, and still nothing. Most people that work there have other jobs, and they use their vacation days for Big Event #1, so that leave some openings for Big Event #2, but I still haven't heard anything from her. This show actually uses the heat settings, but I guess she still "forgot" about me.

While this one event in November is not technically big, because of what the event is about (guns, knives, etc.), it does involve lots of workers. I bet she doesn't "forget" me when its time for that show! But, it's always freezing cold at the door she has me sit at, so who the fuck knows.

3 years ago (before event #2 was held at my job), the plan was for me to get a "real" job after event #1, but I had my car wreck during it, and wasn't fully recovered f/it until summer time, when work picks up again (it slows down after big events until April or May). The plan kept rolling over to after the big events every year since then, but it never happened for various reasons.

This year, it has to happen for real!

When it rains, it pours! Stay tuned for Update #2 to find out what else is going on.

Six Word Saturday

It's Six Word Saturday!

Big event #1 is coming!

The event I love/hate starts Thursday, the boss still hasn't contacted me about it. I met my husband at this event 5 years ago, I had my car wreck driving to work during this event 3 years ago. I enjoy the big paycheck, but not the general public who doesn't want to follow the rules and leave the building/tent at closing time. I've seen some awesome bands perform the last 2 years (Flyleaf and Shinedown), last year there was some bad flooding in my tent, the year before that, porta potties full to the rim one night *shudders*.

Hope your weekend's going well!

Linkbait Generator: 8 reasons to fear Facebook

This website called Linkbait Generator was introduced to me by another blogger, D. A. Schweiss, it generates blog post ideas. As suggested, here are 8 reasons to fear Facebook:

1. If you've been in a car wreck, the victim will find you there.

I was at work one night, decided to hook up my cell phone to the laptop to see what I was missing on Facebook. Bad Idea! The woman that I apparently pulled right in front of a year before this decided she just had to know how I was doing, so she sent me a pm. Good thing I was in a tent by myself at the time, I balled my eyes out. I wanted to reply with some message like, "You ruined my life, bitch!" but I didn't. I emailed a copy of it to my husband, his clearer, less exhausted, not-sitting-in-a-tent-outside-w/no-heat-when-its-20-degrees-aggravating-injuries-f/that-very-accident self gave me ideas for a proper reply, making sure to inform her that I have no memories of the accident, so she couldn't sue me for her truck damages & broken headlight (that she was able to drive away f/the accident with, while my car had to be towed because her big-ass truck broke my transmission, and [along w/the firefighters and the jaws of life] destroyed the frame).

2. You will find out that your boss likes Frederick's of Hollywood.

Not something you expect to see on someone's page, let alone the boss of the summer department. It took me a while to "friend him" because of this. Maybe I shouldn't have. I sent this same person a message about that department the end of May this year, after he wouldn't return my call. He finally called me back to inform me that my post was eliminated.

3. Your mom's boyfriend's daughter-in-law will "friend" you.

I recognized the last name as his after a while, then my mom called me and told me who she was, she wanted to be friends that way her & I could share pictures of the grand daughter w/"the old folks". I did accept, since "the old folks" only use computers to play Solitaire.

4. Farmville.

Just because I work around livestock, barns, and the equipment used on farms doesn't mean I want to do that shit off the clock. There's a reason why I blocked that app.

5. Family (Siblings, In-Laws in particular).

I have to be careful what I post on Facebook because of these people. I've had problems with my in-laws because I posted a status bitching about my husband in some way. I'm not on speaking terms w/my dad, neither is my sister, but my brother is, so I try not to post anything that could be related to my dad. I'm also friends with one of my dad's sisters that he doesn't get along with, along with cousins that are kids and grandkids to dad's siblings. I also worry about my own sister, she used to bombard me with chain emails until I changed my email address and never gave her my new address (mean, I know). My mom hasn't given my sister her new email address as well. I don't know about my brother, but he probably hasn't either.

6. Friend Suggestions

I have seen people suggested on Facebook that I hated the guts of back in high school, I've also seen people I have no frekin clue who they are. These suggestions annoy me. I keep looking at them because every once in a while, I'll find one that I want to friend.

7. Celebrities, Band pages

I'm friends with some local celebrities and band members, I don't know most of them personally, but I enjoy reading what they post on their pages (tour dates, new blog posts, news anchor commenting on a story they reported earlier, etc.). This is also where the friend suggestions for people I have no clue who they are comes into play (see #6). Facebook, thinking we have a friend in common, thinks that we may know each other, not realizing that this common friend is someone that "everybody" knows.

8. IM

It only seems like someone wants to IM me when I'm either at work with a weak internet signal, or its someone I really don't want to talk to. I try to be polite, and chat for a minute, or tell them I can't. I finally figured out how to turn it off, and it now stays off.

I don't know if all of these would necessarily be things to fear, but they annoy me, and the fear that those annoyances will take over my life is good enough reason for me to have them on this list.

Thank you for reading.

I was featured on someone's blog!

This is a blog entry about me by D. A. Schweiss:

Quiet Rumbling

He featured me on his Blog to Blog post, he felt it was appropriate since it was Memorial Day. We've had some interesting conversations on twitter, and I believe we met through Six Word Saturday. If your coming over here from there, welcome! I hope I can answer some questions in this post to help you understand the one he featured "I'm ok"

I wrote this after my husband (Vx) left for deployment. He's in the Army Reserves, like the National Guard, normally Reservist serve one weekend a month, two weeks a year. There are some out there that are full time Reservist (report for duty almost every day), and there is my husband's current unit, they are instructors, instead of going to drill every month, they teach classes for about 2 weeks at a time every few months; they can be ordered to deploy, like the Active Army. In his former units (the 'one weekend a month/2 weeks a year' ones), he had been told numerous times before that he's deploying, and then someone changed their mind. People would keep asking me and him, "When are you leaving?" and we would keep telling them, "In a few months," but then something would happen and he wouldn't go. He really wants to deploy! I wanted to live on my own before we got married and I didn't, so I wanted him to go because he wanted to and I wanted to live on my own. Finally a unit (I called Salsa) came along, and this time it really did seem like it was real. He left for the mob site (where they go to get their final items issued, medical checks, and training) right before the I'm ok post, his next destination was supposed to be Iraqistan (we didn't know the exact location at the time). At the mob site, a dentist said he needed to come back home to get his teeth fixed, or as I called it, he was too lazy to do it himself, so they flew him back home 3 weeks later, while I was busy at work. His unit got in trouble during that time, and he wasn't allowed to deploy after all. He still hasn't deployed and it doesn't look like he will anytime soon.

Sometimes I forget that I had another blog that I made private, so I write stuff not realizing

there's no point of reference. October 2007 I was in a car wreck, I broke my left femur, had broken glass in my face, and suffered head trauma and short term memory loss. I don't remember the accident, most of my 11 day hospital stay, and other things that have happened since then (I still have some memory problems). While my husband has insurance through the Army (Tricare), getting me covered on it costs too much, & my job doesn't provide benefits for me (I'm considered part-time). I am part Native American, so I can get cheap or free health care through their clinics and a hospital about an hour away. Living in Oklahoma, where many tribes are located, this helps me out greatly in that matter. It's not the greatest health care, but it's better than nothing.

My job: I'm a security guard for an "event center" where they hold a variety of events. This last week is a great example: I started Friday before last watching some semi trucks and trailers for an auction, then I moved to an arena for a horse/cow show, watching merchandise and not allowing competitors or others inside until certain times (one area opened before the others), then I moved to another building for a dog show. As a music lover, obviously I love working concerts, but I have trouble standing around, and being a smaller woman has its disadvantages as well. This particular event, I was supposed to watch a stage and it's sound equipment, but another co-worker who was trying to get some time off from his full-time job couldn't, so I was moved to his post since it was a bigger deal (watching merchandise and a car inside a tent). I showed up 2 1/2 hours early to my job to see Shinedown perform live, despite the cold, it was a great concert! They're not a local band, but when they were starting out, they played shows here a few times a year, until they became a bigger name and started selling out those places immediately.

I hope I answered any questions you may have, if not, feel free to leave a comment, email me silvrstar@gmail.com or if your on twitter, @silvrstar. Again, thanks for stopping by!

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Yeah, that's how I feel. Blah. I am so frekin bored with this whole damn life! Once I get past an aggravation, another one comes up.

We finally got the air conditioner, burners on the stove, oven, fridge, bathroom sink, fan, and the toilet fixed. We had to clean up, that was an undertaking, Vx's deployment shit is EVERYWHERE! Out of fear that maintenance would have to replace the fridge and stove completely, his stuff had to be moved into our bedroom, on top of all of his other (mostly deployment) shit that I have to trip over to reach the dresser or open the window.

Since the Army rather send soldiers on multiple deployments instead of sending my husband (who WANTS to go) on his first, can I pack up all this deployment stuff and send it back to Fort Dix or that other base he got the shit from? (the mob site in Georgia)

The a/c was fixed immediately (outside company, it was out of coolant), the rest took a while. A maintenance man came to work on it, he fixed the bathroom sink (there was a hot water stream when it was turned off all the way) and all the burners work (2 didn't work before), tweaked w/the toilet (its better now than it was, the tank fills up after flushing it most of the time), made the fridge colder (like having frozen food on the warmest setting is gonna be fixed by making it colder?), said there wasn't anything wrong w/the fan (Vx made him stand in the bathroom w/it on until it started squealing loudly), then he said he'd have to order a part for the fan and stove (electric coil exploded). The office called Vx about the repairs, he told them everything, the maintenance man wrote on his work order that he fixed everything. He's now been reassigned. A new maintenance man came in and fixed everything! He's wasn't sure about the fridge, but it's keeping things cold now (NOT frozen), we can cook again, and the bathroom smells disappear much quicker and quietly now.

Right about the time everything was fixed, Vx's friend asked him to do some work on his mom's house, she's moving out of it, the friend and his girlfriend (together maybe a year) are moving in. The thing that bothers me about this: Vx and I have been married for over 2 years (together about 5), we still live with my mom in her apartment! Is it just me, or should the rolls be reversed?

Vx has orders now (not that it means anything), he's in a new unit on the west coast, he won't be going to drill once a month (not that he has been since the whole deployment bs), after completing some classes, he'll be an instructor. One possibility is we'll be living at FLW (would it be appropriate to call it the chemical mecca?) for a short time while he teaches some classes. I fear if this assignment doesn't happen, we'll never move out of my mom's apartment. I WANT OUT OF HERE!!!

I made the mistake a month back, I asked Vx to call someone about these garage apartments near this area we agreed to live in, there condo's and they were asking as much for it as what my medical bills were about 2 years ago (six digits), now he's stuck on the idea of getting a place w/a garage. I found some other garage apartments, they were newer and further away from that particular area, they were asking 3X as much! Now he's stuck on the idea of garage apartments.

The place he had a storage unit at before the deployment bs, he's renting a unit from them again. One of the people running the place before may possibly be a "tag chaser," I'm not sure. She told him she's dated Marines, and she sent him a picture of what appeared to be her boob. He had a talk with her about it, so hopefully I won't have to do anything to her! He says there's stuff in the unit, and he'll put some of the army stuff in there as well, he says a lot of stuff but doesn't do them, so I don't have much faith in what he says or in anything involving him.

Summer time's coming, I don't know how last summer's job will work this year, ES changed the rules on work hours and pay, I assume it also applies to FMT as well. While I don't want to work about 60 days straight again, I'm curious how all of this will work with the others since this is only a 2 or 3 month job that some need to work more than 40 hrs a week at. Are they gonna have to hire more people for a temporary job? Some of these people work there every year, so if new people need to be hired, then they'll have to be trained, and pass background checks, and maybe even IRS (some do, some don't). That's something else that worries me, I made a mistake on my taxes last year, your taxes have to be in good shape for my department, so will the mistakes affect me this year? Federal said I had a mistake, but my refund was still the same, and the state kept what was supposed to be refunded.

The other night, I was looking at canes online. I feel so old. I'd like to have a fold up one that I'll keep in my car or whatever bag I carry around at work so when it starts raining while I'm there, I won't have to struggle to walk around as much. The other day, my husband and I went to Wal-Mart while it was raining outside, I could hardly walk into the store. I was okay when I got inside, I sat at a bench while he tried on some pants, we walked around a little bit, and when we were leaving the weakness started again. So this is what life will be like for me, hope that new unit doesn't want Vx and I to move there (I believe it rains in that area a lot, its also colder there)!

Memorial Day

I hope everyone's enjoying the holiday weekend, please don't forget the reason for the holiday, U.S. men and women who died while in the military service. Also remember the people who aren't fortunate to have this day off, military, security personnel, media, hospital workers, fire departments, ambulance crews, various police forces and many others. There are checkpoints set up in various places, so please don't drink and drive, especially this weekend. Remember the workers at the gas stations, grocery stores, and pharmacys so you may purchase last minute items, like gas to return home, that loaf of bread you forget for your sandwiches, or medicine incase you need medication. Any empty buildings you may drive by will probably have a security guard inside since criminals also don't take holidays off. If bad Wx makes an appearance, the media will be there to let you know if your in the path of a storm, and other important information you may need to know. If your involved in a car wreck, you will receive the proper attention needed. If you are injured severly, go into labor, or have a heart attack, there will be people at the hospital to help you out, and of course, as we are all aware of, terrorists don't take off on holidays either. Many of the above mentioned workers that are working today could very well be someone in the Reserves, Natinoal Guard, or a veteran. Whether you have the day off or not, I hope it is a good and safe day. 

uh...

I want to write a post, I have a few things I'd like to write about, but none of them would probably be the appropriate length for an individual entry, so I'll try just sticking all of them in one (hopefully not too) long post.

Military Spouse Appreciation Day: It's today, so a happy day to all of us!

Star Trek: OMG, the movie was awesome! Like I told the people in line for the 9:30 showing, great movie! If your like myself, wondering how certain things are going to work out (like having Leonard Nimoy and Zachary Quinto playing the same character, where this Nero character came from, etc.) it is all explained in the movie very well. I will add, poor Porthos! (if you watched Enterprise, you'll understand this part better than some). The line was not as dorky as I feared, while I was leaving the 7pm showing, there was at least one starfleet uniform (TNG red) in line for 9:30, and I didn't spot any at the 7pm showing. I did wear my Enterprise necklace, but since it's so small, I don't think anyone noticed.

Sleep schedule: I've been sleeping at night, not good since the overnight shifts are about to start up again. It's almost 4 am as I type this, the latest I've been able to stay awake in a while, so hopefully this will help out. Current (ES) boss wants me to work for her, but I don't think I can handle the cold she wants me to deal with, so I need to talk to FMT boss about working w/him again, it's not as cold, and hopefully not as much bs as last summer. It is 2 months of steady work, ES probably won't be able to pull that off.

Medical: I read a post from someone earlier, she mentioned the dentist, and it reminded me of all the medical stuff I need to do. At my last cleaning, the hygenist thought I either broke a piece of my jaw off or I had a rougue tooth, so I need to see a dentist about that, and the wisdom teeth she thought may need to get pulled. This hygenist works for a dental clinic that a dentist only see's adult patients on an emergency walk-in basis, but I got the hygenist from hell at the last dentist I saw and they are such a huge part of the exam, so idk what to do for sure about that. It's also time for my eye dr. appt, but since I still have a gillion contacts left, I'm not really concerned about that one, even if it is the best and closest dr. I have. It's funny considering it used to be in reverse, hated eye dr, loved dentist. I also need to try again to see someone about my head, that one is a real pain literally, but I'm not getting better in that department! It would be nice to get my pins removed, but I'm not holding my breath on that one. To put it simply, I need health insurance so I don't have to keep waiting 6 weeks to see someone about my head, these pins can be removed easier, and that may also help with the dentist part as well.

I'm tired of always complaining about my life, but everything I've been trying to do about it isn't working! I hate everything!

confused

Does anyone ever feel they need way more advice than they can offer anyone? I am so indecisive, shy, nervous, afraid, and confused about everything, I tend to act before thinking at times, or I waste so much time thinking that I don't do anything, and when I do make a choice in a timely fashion, most of the time, I make the wrong choice or it just doesn't work out. One supposed example, about 18 months ago, I decided to pull out in front of that damn 3/4 ton pickup instead of waiting another 5 minutes or so for an opening, or just turn right and take another route to work that day. I remember the days before having trouble getting an opening in both directions so I could make that left, I was trying to attempt this about 5:30pm during the week. The route I usually take to work is a bad way to go during this event, so I was trying to go another way that works. Last Sept.-Oct. when this event happened again, I was at a different post, so going my normal route was the best option then. Like I've mentioned before, my husband told me to pick a place to live since I'll be the one living there while he's gone, but he doesn't like any of my choices despite him telling me about those places. I don't have another job, I don't know what kind of job to try and get, last time I actively looked, after 2 years, I couldn't take the rejection anymore and quit looking. I don't want to try that field anymore, but it's all I've wanted to do since I was about 15. I don't think I interview well, I'm shy, so it's hard to talk to someone, especially a stranger. I didn't have to interview for my current job, my mom just told our boss about me, and I've proven to her that I'm dependable. But those jobs that require being dependable are now the jobs I can't handle because of my injuries. I'm still paying for that mistake I apparently made 18 months ago, my leg hurts quite a bit, more so when it's cold (it's always cold at my job, unless your outside in 100 degree Wx), I don't remember the accident, so idk if and when I'm making the same mistake again, I get confused easily (head trauma, short term memory loss), and my husband and I have to be careful touching the left side of my face (where the glass was removed). My right leg falls asleep easily, it's hard to "wake up" and it shakes a lot more than it used to. I still put more weight on the right leg than the left, and it will hurt from that, when I make the effort to switch, the left leg hurts. I'm still going to physical therapy, but I can't tell if it's helping or not, my balance seems worse than I remember it being, but I don't remember things very well. What am I supposed to do about anything and everything? I'm only typing out about half of it!

more shit

Yes folks, I will be griping and complaining a lot more about my life and Army shit, so feel free to leave at this time.

Ok, for anyone who decided to stay, I hope you know what you've got yourself into. I'll start w/what time I finally got to bed, almost 7 am, I tried to earlier than that, but it didn't happen. 10 am I wake up to Vx talking on the phone as loud as he can to some guy about his damn helicoptor, then I hear my mom, she came home to shower before leaving again, she's hanging out w/a new male friend, well see how long she can stand this guy. Then Vx continues to talk as loud as he can to a representative about his and another soldier's pay f/Salsa, (incase this hasn't been said before, Salsa isn't paying Vx and another guy, the other guy is a student who has been kicked out of his place because of this, and Vx is having trouble working because of the economy and other Army BS), then he talks (loudly) to the other guy and who knows who else. One hour of sleep lost because my husband can't be quiet! Then he leaves, but instead of quiet, P decides to keep hitting the bedroom door and meowing loudly. I've told her numerous times to quit, but she didn't (typical cat). Finally my alarm clock goes off about 12:30 so I can go to physical therapy, I never got back to sleep before that, so instead of getting up to go I tried to go back to sleep, I got maybe an hour more before the kids were outside, some adults decided to fight right outside the bedroom window, and of course, the cat. I got up, made the bed, got dressed, then layed down again w/the cat. P decided to continuously bite me, then Vx came home. I got up for good, one thing led to another and we started fighting again! Money, deployment, my injuries, where we live, everything exploded out!
One point I continuously made was that he's not getting deployed, other people keep getting picked over him, he's not at that school he's supposed to be at so he can go w/Salsa, and I'm sick and tired of him continuously telling people for the last year or more that he's going, even though he's still here! He brought up the fact that I don't have another job (what job can I get? who's hiring right now? and reminders that in a few months i'll be working many, many hours, and he hasn't been looking for a job either), I haven't seen anyone about my head, (I have tried, they keep telling me to call back in 6 weeks, I do and they tell me the same thing again), where we live (he wants me to pick the place, but he veto's my choices, he claims i'll be there more than him, i remind him he's not getting deployed!), he throws away money on his hobbies all the fuckin time while I haven't enjoyed mine since November, he spent half of my last pay check on rain gear because he used his on another computer, and the point I made in a previous argument that I had to make again: we're homeless yet we have 5 computers, bunch of Army shit he bought, helicoptors, camera equipment, kung-fu equipment and lessons he won't go to because he can't learn to ignore a certain person there, storage unit he doesn't use (keeps most of his tools in his vehicle, which he got stuff stolen out of it a while back because of that, and he won't keep his other stuff there; he made the point that they broke my window as well, I told him nothing got stolen out of mine, expensive shit got taken out of his, and he keeps our marriage license that I need in there somewhere), gym membership he doesn't use, and so much more. One more thing: he says, "I have orders" my response, "You've had orders for over a year, yet you're still here!"
Like the title of this blog says, I married into this bs, yay! I do feel better now having got all this off my chest again, so if you stuck around til the end, congradulations! I'll quit now and eat some dinner, besides, I think blogger's getting ready for an outage.